Wayne L Smith 3/11/44 - 3/26/2009

On March 26, 2009
The day the angels came
My life will never be the same.
A one hour nap turned into an eternal sleep.
Did he pray the Lord his soul to keep?
No more pain for him they say,
for he went the easy way.
Questions and tears
Anger and fears
If I had loved him more would he still be mine?

Depression and falling off the wagon.

Life has been kinda nuts. March has been a bad month for me. My Wayne's birthday would have been the 11th, my mom's would have been the 14th. On top of those memories, the 26th of this month Wayne will have been gone for 2 years.
I've been pretty depressed and falling off the wagon a lot. Eating all the wrong things and not caring much.
The surgery was just a tool. I need to get my head back in the game. I am still a stress eater and a depression eating. Seeking comfort from all the wrong things.
It's time to kick it up a notch or kick my own tush, whichever comes first.

                                                   Today at 205 lbs gone.